It will soon be evident that there’s a theme in my ramblings of a working mama. My awesome job requires that I travel from time to time (6-8 trips per year, though I’ve only taken 4 since returning from mat leave), and while I’m traveling, clearly I’m not with Noa. This week I’m out in Seattle visiting Duke parents and rocking my job. This is the first time I’ve been away for more than one night, and it’s killing me. Matt initially was going to be gone to a conference Tue-Friday and I was scheduled to be gone M-Th. My awesome MIL volunteered to fill the gaps in our coverage. After dropping Noa at daycare Monday morning, I wrapped up my travel plans, sent some emails, and picked up dry cleaning, all with tears in my eyes, and doubt in my mind. I’m such a control freak that despite the 7ish page pamphlet I left for Rhonda, and support of the daycare providers who have been watching her for 10 hours a day for the past 6 1/2 months, I was still incredibly anxious about leaving our Goose for 3 nights. I bravely loaded up my neon green carry-on and giant purse and drove slowly to the airport. When I got there, I went through the usual rigmarole with removing my liquids and shoes, yadda yadda. Just as I emerged from the full-body scanner, my phone rang. It was Miss Alaina from Children’s Academy calling to tell me that Noa’s eye was crusted shut with yellow ooze when she woke up from her nap. They had cleaned it several times, but it kept gunking up. Someone needed to pick her up for fear that she was once again patient zero and was about to contaminate the entire infant classroom with pinkeye or worse. In a panic, I called our pediatrician, and was lucky to secure an after-hours appointment for our cyclops. Phew! Step one complete. Then I called my hubby. His job these days requires a ton of meetings, energy, and attention. Luckily, as I choked on my words and tried to hide my panic, he simply said, “Ok, I’ll head that way.” Again, phew! I had to get on a 5 1/2 hour flight before I knew what was wrong with our sweet Goose. I was able to get wi-fi so Matt could email me with the news. She has another ear infection. Ugh! Poor thing has another 10 day dose of Amoxicillin, and has been giving her NeNe a really hard time at night. Thank goodness she (NeNe) was able to cover for us. I feel so guilty for not catching the ear infection in the first place, and then not being there to rock our sweet girl to sleep and comfort her. These days it’s a constant struggle to find a balance between momming and working. I want to be able to hold on to the part of me that is confident, career driven, adventurous, etc. but I miss that little girl so much-she makes me weak and strong at the same time. It’s so hard to be so far away this week. My trip has been successful thus far, and Noa was able to return to daycare today. Miss Tonya Facetimed me this morning, and I got a little wave goodbye from my girl before we ended the call. Can’t wait to pick her up tomorrow afternoon-counting down the hours!